Never Alone

This marks the first post in my Simply Me and My Thoughts in Christ blog.

Deuteronomy 31:6 - Be strong and of a good courage, fear not, nor be afraid of them: for the LORD thy God, he [it is] that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

1 Peter 5:7 - Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

Matthew 28:20 - Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you alway, [even] unto the end of the world. Amen.

Joshua 1:5 - There shall not any man be able to stand before thee all the days of thy life: as I was with Moses, [so] I will be with thee: I will not fail thee, nor forsake thee.

1 Chronicles 28:20 - And David said to Solomon his son, Be strong and of good courage, and do [it]: fear not, nor be dismayed: for the LORD God, [even] my God, [will be] with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee, until thou hast finished all the work for the service of the house of the LORD.

I am in a very dark time in my life - I am surrounded by my husband and children but I feel so alone in my journey in life.  Family means everything to me and to see my family slowly dissolve to nothing except with what I have next to me is mind-boggling.  I have always believed that family is everything and family SHOULD be around family no matter what one does.  However, I am being shown very clearly that family will turn their backs on you if you don't do what they expect you to do even though it has nothing to do with them.

I am constantly reminded during this time that even though I feel so alone, God is with me always.  He'll never leave me or forsake me; He is the only constant thing in my life. 

I need to take this time to really dig deep inside myself and find my Faith once again, to give my life back to God completely and wholly.   Looking back at my time being an Apostolic, I don't really ever recall feeling so lonely in my life spiritually because I had my Faith to rely on but I do recall being lonely somewhat in the Flesh but I was able to carry out my life knowing I had the Faith.  Since leaving the church, where did my Faith go? Where did my true spirituality go?

This dark phase in my life is really pushing me to really look at what I am doing and to observe whether my "spirituality" is helping me and I am seeing that it is not at all, I have nothing to turn to, I have no faith, and it is like God is lifting my chin up and saying "Look at me, Child; I am here, I am real, Trust ME, have Faith in ME and Let go of all that You've held on to for all these years and allow me to Heal you spiritually". 

I am never Alone, I give God the glory and Praise for this.  I pray for strength thru this difficult time and I pray for clarity.

Be Blessed.